Today I attended UCM and had an amazing time in worship and prayer. One of the songs that really hit home with me was Mighty To Save by Hillsong. This song just reminds me of the Saviour we serve and what a might God He is! Below is the chorus that I can't get out of my head that is also helping me through a tough time.

Chorus:
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Tough time?!? Well, let me share a story I really struggled over and whether or not I should share it. Please be praying for me as I continue to deal with and process the situation.

Friday morning early my friend and I hoped in a van headed for Bangkok to start our adventure. It was 3am and not much traffic on the road. She slept in the van beside me and the other passengers were all Thai. As many of you know, I don't sleep in anything that moves! So I sat quietly looking out the dark window to the limited landscape I could see. About an hour into our trip we slowed down quite a bit. Strange, I thought, that there should be so much traffic at this time in the morning in the middle of nowhere. About that time I saw a car stopped in the lane and several people standing there. Then my eyes fell on the lone body in the road, twisted and a large pool of blood by his head. No one was attending to the body and by the looks of it, I was certain I had just seen a dead body or someone close to dying. My heart broke! How could someone be lying in the middle of the road and no one was doing anything?!? But really what could they do? And it's kind of normal for Thailand as this was a case of motorbike verses car. (motorbike accidents are one of the leading causes of death in Thailand)

No one else in the van seemed to notice. We didn't stop and life continued as if we hadn't just passed a dead body in the middle of the road. That is for everyone else. I didn't know what to say, who to tell or what to think. So I said nothing, did nothing and just let it sit there in my mind. For a week I struggled with it. Often having trouble going to sleep, as I closed my eyes the image would come to mind and so I would find something else to do to get my mind on something else, to try and erase the image.

A little history at this point is needed: In the very recent past I have been talking to people about the possibility of going back to school for nursing. I just keep thinking that a degree in nursing would totally open more doors for missions and allow me to get into any country. Not to mention help people. I've never made the clear decision that I do want to go back to school and pursue this major but it has weighed heavily on my mind since arriving here in Thailand.

After what I saw, my world has been rocked! Do I go into nursing? I mean how I wish I could have stopped to see if I could help. There's a good chance that I couldn't have done anything but doesn't everyone deserve a chance or at least to have someone care? So, I'm left wondering what does God have for me? I know He allowed me to see this for a reason, to learn, grow and stretch. A friend of mine pointed out, how much this could be likened to someone dying alone without Christ. How sad that is and how important it is for people to get out there and share so that another person doesn't have to die alone!

I don't know where I'm going from here but I know that whatever it is, it's going to involve sharing God's love! Please pray for me as I try and figure out the next steps in my future and where God wants me. The image has faded some and I am sleeping better. Thank you for your prayers and support! I know I couldn't do this on my own!