The count down begins... only I'm not looking forward to this count down! I leave Thailand in 3 weeks.... then spend 3 weeks working with Heather and Jeremy in Holland and then home. And while that seems like a lot of time before I get back to the US, for me that is just to soon to be leaving Thailand!

Last week I went to Singapore for my last "visa run" and had a good time. On the flight home I got to talking to another passenger headed to Thailand. We were getting close to the Bangkok airport and I was just so excited. I said, "I'm so glad to be home!" He gave me a strange look, as we had already talked about my being from the United States, and asked,"So Thailand really feels like 'home' to you?" "YES, very much SO!"

It feels weird to be leaving HOME to go 'home' but not really sure where my place is at 'home' or what I'm suppose to be doing next. I can't say that Thailand is where I'm called to live for the rest of my life, but I can tell you that being here has just confirmed my love and desire to be in full time missions. I feel SO alive, so at peace, so at HOME when I am on the mission field. I love watching God work in such an amazing and almost "hands on" way. I love being a part of sharing the Gospel with others and living in another culture. I love the friends I've made and I just love being able to focus so much time on prayer.

I feel bad that I don't want to come home. It's not that I don't miss everyone back home and don't love you all very much, but I LOVE it here. It's home. It just confirms for me that I am right where God wants me to be. And while I'm extremely sad to even think about leaving... I do know that if I am walking in Gods will for my life it will include amazing things and will eventually lead me somewhere in the world for ministry :) Please pray with me as I seek Gods will for my future. I really don't know what I'm suppose to do next or where I'm suppose to go from here... I just know that I am suppose to GO....

Wow! I'm realizing how long it's been since I last posted! Sorry about that :) Things are going well here! We had a team in last week and had so much fun with them. Friday morning we went prayer walking down the pier and walking street. We spent the afternoon hanging out with them, going out to lunch and then shopping. Later on we had a night of distribution at the Palladium. It was awesome! Before the team even arrived Enoch and Wes had handed out an entire box of Bibles and packets, while I held the sign and prayed. Then we had several nights at the pier with them. As always it's wonderful to see what a faithful God we have and how He just answers prayer and blesses each of us.

A story I wanted to share is from one night when we were without a team and the SCPT team went out to the pier for distribution:

As I've shared we are inside the 'pier house' and not out on the pier. We stand on the steps and hold signs high and yell out to the Chinese tourists that we have a gift for them, we have FREE Bibles. This particular Monday night I was holding the sign on the first step praying, while Jessia (one of our beloved Chinese translators) stood next to me calling out to the groups as they were milling about. There was this group coming down the pier and they had kind of stopped at the end of the pier before coming all the way up to the 'pier house.' Before I knew what was happening there were 3 grown men racing towards Jessia. I mean full blown, head long straight for us! It was like watching a slow motion scene in a movie as they reached us, knocking Jessia over, fighting over the Bible in her hand. Jessia up about 2 steps, landing on her wrist, all the while trying to tell them we have more and trying to get more so they could have them. It was amazing, funny, and beautiful! I mean to see the recognition on their faces that they could have a Bible, the desire to get one and the almost unbelief that ALL 3 of them could have their very own and the gratitude as they walked away! Jessia was fine... a little sore but I will never forget the sheer joy of seeing their faces! We laughed, the next night someone asked if Jessia needed a helmet just in case we had another incident.

God is working! It's amazing to be a part of His work and see the Chinese take Bibles. I'm working on my Chinese. The other night at the pier I was handing out Bibles and as a group went through I saw a young women and prayed for her. In my little Chinese I said, Bible, Free, This is a gift I give to you, and then my new favorite, Customs, no problem! She looked at me and stared... and said Free? and I said Free! With a huge smile she took the Bible and packet. Praise God!!!

Please continue to pray for us as we distribute. Over the next couple of weeks we will be working with teams that are here to work with the Tamar center. I'm excited as my days will be in the warehouse and nights at the pier! Please continue to pray for my support. I am seeing how God is blessing me and it really is a day at a time thing. I am heading to Singapore on Tuesday for my last visa run!!! God blessed me greatly by sending someone to provide this trip for me! Thank you all for your prayers and support! I pray that God is blessing you just as much as you have blessed me and as I am being blessed.

I'm DRIVING!!!

As many of you will recall I blogged the day I found out I was going to have to drive in Thailand. I started asking for prayer months before getting here. My prayer request was always that I would get here and NOT have to drive! I was so not looking forward to having to drive and prayed accordingly. Chinese New Year came and it worked out perfect, NO driving! I was happy as could be. In fact it looked like I wasn't going to have to drive here at all... but then I started having a desire to drive. I know crazy right?!? Well, last week, with the help of a friend, drove us back to our community from the pier! God was totally there making a way for me as there were very few cars on the road and it went by without incident. The next morning he let me drive to the warehouse. Again, totally awesome. So, now I'm a Thai driver!

I can say that especially after my weekend! I again went on an "Angel Adventure"... she called me Satruday and said, "Hey you want to go on an adventure?" A little hesitant after my last "adventure," I asked what it would be... she said, "my friend from church is going to the hospital to visit very sick people to pray for them and share the gospel..." Now this was an "adventure" I could get behind... not to mention she said after we could go to Starbucks and hang out... I was in!

Then she dropped the bomb... not at the warehouse but downtown and I would have to drive and pick her up by myself. First time driving alone! I totally missed my turn and had to drive "around the block" which wasn't really around the block but I made it and picked her up. We also picked up her friend and they together took me on a little driving adventure to the Thai government hospital (not the really nice one we Americans go to).

It was an awesome time, just praying for people and sharing the gospel. Several women prayed to receive Christ and we prayed for healing. It was amazing! One women when we came in couldn't hardly sit up. She had to be helped up and supported while she sat and listened. But by the time we were done talking with and praying for her and she had received Christ, she was smiling, sitting on her own, and SO animated. Before we left she looked at me and said "We are family now." It was so heart warming and awesome to see God's hand at work!

It was a WONDERFUL weekend... even with driving :) I survived and have since driven several times and actually like it! I will also say that I've also ridden on a motorbike! Nothing like facing your fears and knowing that God is completely in control. He is nothing but faithful!

If you have anything you would like me to pray about please let me know! I'm enjoying my time with God and would like to "stand in the gap" for you all! Thanks for the support and prayers! I can feel them.

A LOT of pictures!!!

Finally pictures from my "Angel Adventure" and our trip out to the village.

The village was a wonderful time of hanging out and playing games with the kids, singing songs and sharing the gospel. After we shared we handed out Bibles and packets and prayed for various people in the village. Throughout the course of the evening we prayed very specifically for healing of several people. One of the men that was prayed for said he was healed and that he had heard about Christ on the radio but never truly knew what it was about or felt God. But as they prayed for him he knew and accepted Christ as his Lord and Savior. He believed so strongly that he went and got his daughter to have her prayed for and she believed. There were 2 other salvations! Praise God! After we had dinner and had packed up everything we sat and talked with the people, allowed them to ask questions. The big thing they are struggling with is, having been raised Buddhist, how do they do both religions, or how are they supposed to act differently from when they were Buddhist. Please pray that they will see the light and know the truth, there is ONE God and only ONE truth!

The next morning we took a missionary from up in that area out to the village to meet the chief and see about continuing the ministry there. After talking with the chief he wasn't sure that he should as the chief didn't seem sure the people would want it. However, several took him to visit the man who had accepted Christ and after about 45 minutes of visiting, an appointment was made for the missionary to return to the village and start discipleship with this man and any others who choose to participate. Please be praying for this small village and the people who have already accepted Christ.














Angel and I with the rest of the group from the garden! We are standing in "no mans land" and behind us you are looking into Cambodia. The rest are from various spots we stopped.

Today I attended UCM and had an amazing time in worship and prayer. One of the songs that really hit home with me was Mighty To Save by Hillsong. This song just reminds me of the Saviour we serve and what a might God He is! Below is the chorus that I can't get out of my head that is also helping me through a tough time.

Chorus:
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Tough time?!? Well, let me share a story I really struggled over and whether or not I should share it. Please be praying for me as I continue to deal with and process the situation.

Friday morning early my friend and I hoped in a van headed for Bangkok to start our adventure. It was 3am and not much traffic on the road. She slept in the van beside me and the other passengers were all Thai. As many of you know, I don't sleep in anything that moves! So I sat quietly looking out the dark window to the limited landscape I could see. About an hour into our trip we slowed down quite a bit. Strange, I thought, that there should be so much traffic at this time in the morning in the middle of nowhere. About that time I saw a car stopped in the lane and several people standing there. Then my eyes fell on the lone body in the road, twisted and a large pool of blood by his head. No one was attending to the body and by the looks of it, I was certain I had just seen a dead body or someone close to dying. My heart broke! How could someone be lying in the middle of the road and no one was doing anything?!? But really what could they do? And it's kind of normal for Thailand as this was a case of motorbike verses car. (motorbike accidents are one of the leading causes of death in Thailand)

No one else in the van seemed to notice. We didn't stop and life continued as if we hadn't just passed a dead body in the middle of the road. That is for everyone else. I didn't know what to say, who to tell or what to think. So I said nothing, did nothing and just let it sit there in my mind. For a week I struggled with it. Often having trouble going to sleep, as I closed my eyes the image would come to mind and so I would find something else to do to get my mind on something else, to try and erase the image.

A little history at this point is needed: In the very recent past I have been talking to people about the possibility of going back to school for nursing. I just keep thinking that a degree in nursing would totally open more doors for missions and allow me to get into any country. Not to mention help people. I've never made the clear decision that I do want to go back to school and pursue this major but it has weighed heavily on my mind since arriving here in Thailand.

After what I saw, my world has been rocked! Do I go into nursing? I mean how I wish I could have stopped to see if I could help. There's a good chance that I couldn't have done anything but doesn't everyone deserve a chance or at least to have someone care? So, I'm left wondering what does God have for me? I know He allowed me to see this for a reason, to learn, grow and stretch. A friend of mine pointed out, how much this could be likened to someone dying alone without Christ. How sad that is and how important it is for people to get out there and share so that another person doesn't have to die alone!

I don't know where I'm going from here but I know that whatever it is, it's going to involve sharing God's love! Please pray for me as I try and figure out the next steps in my future and where God wants me. The image has faded some and I am sleeping better. Thank you for your prayers and support! I know I couldn't do this on my own!