The count down begins... only I'm not looking forward to this count down! I leave Thailand in 3 weeks.... then spend 3 weeks working with Heather and Jeremy in Holland and then home. And while that seems like a lot of time before I get back to the US, for me that is just to soon to be leaving Thailand!

Last week I went to Singapore for my last "visa run" and had a good time. On the flight home I got to talking to another passenger headed to Thailand. We were getting close to the Bangkok airport and I was just so excited. I said, "I'm so glad to be home!" He gave me a strange look, as we had already talked about my being from the United States, and asked,"So Thailand really feels like 'home' to you?" "YES, very much SO!"

It feels weird to be leaving HOME to go 'home' but not really sure where my place is at 'home' or what I'm suppose to be doing next. I can't say that Thailand is where I'm called to live for the rest of my life, but I can tell you that being here has just confirmed my love and desire to be in full time missions. I feel SO alive, so at peace, so at HOME when I am on the mission field. I love watching God work in such an amazing and almost "hands on" way. I love being a part of sharing the Gospel with others and living in another culture. I love the friends I've made and I just love being able to focus so much time on prayer.

I feel bad that I don't want to come home. It's not that I don't miss everyone back home and don't love you all very much, but I LOVE it here. It's home. It just confirms for me that I am right where God wants me to be. And while I'm extremely sad to even think about leaving... I do know that if I am walking in Gods will for my life it will include amazing things and will eventually lead me somewhere in the world for ministry :) Please pray with me as I seek Gods will for my future. I really don't know what I'm suppose to do next or where I'm suppose to go from here... I just know that I am suppose to GO....